so i am having a wedding reception in 8 days. i have had no hand in this, (my mother in law planned it in its entirety) but now i am entirely freaking out, because what do you wear for your own wedding reception… this will be the last chance i ever get to have a “real” wedding, in the traditional sense, even if it’s not very traditional really and yes even if i would like to believe otherwise, that is a HUGE deal to me.
when my husband and i got married i was caught up in the spontaneity of eloping. after my mothers death my attitude was a little “fuck it, you only live once” but you also only get married once, and a “fuck it” attitude isn’t the right kind of attitude to have going into a marriage.
so i bought a dress. i payed to have it express shipped so it would get here on time, and when i got it, IT DIDN’T FIT. it was also all kinds of wrong for the event, being super casual.
now i’m freaking out again. i don’t know a bride in the WORLD who doesn’t want to feel beautiful at their “wedding”. even though this isn’t really a wedding…i want to pretend it is. because if not i will never have a wedding. i will never be a beautiful new bride. 😦